Holly Madison discusses her time at the Playboy Mansion once more, this time on the Power: Hugh Hefner Podcast.
Madison became one of Hefner’s girlfriends when she was 21 years old, and she recalls their first “traumatic” night together. The former Girls Next Door star, now 41, went to a club with the publishing mogul and a group of other women on their first date.
“I didn’t expect to have sex that night; I expected it to be more of a first date, though it’s obviously not a very traditional first date.” I expected it to be more of a situation in which I saw what happened and what was happening. “If I wasn’t comfortable with it, I wouldn’t have anything to do and I’d be able to decide whether or not I wanted to come back for date two,” she explained. “I didn’t expect to have sex that night, and I certainly didn’t expect to be the first to go that night, but I was lost, he was literally pushed on me, and after that happened, I was just mortified and embarrassed, and it had a lot more emotional impact on me than I thought.”
Holly Madison talks about her time as Hugh Hefner’s Playboy girlfriend after their split in 2009.
Holly Madison stated that she admired Hefner for their previous, albeit “limited,” interactions and that it wasn’t the fact that she had sex with him that “pushed her away.”
“It was more the group aspect that pushed me out of my comfort zone, and the feeling of ‘Wow, okay, that happened.'” “Everyone is aware that this has occurred,” she explained. “All of a sudden, I had the feeling that everyone was going to find out about me, and I was terrified.”
Holly Madison asked to move into the mansion the next morning because she felt “it required respect in a way.”
“I felt like if I didn’t do that, I’d be haunted by this experience,” she said, referring to their evening together as a “traumatic experience.”
Madison also went into detail about the alleged tactics Hefner used to exert control over the women in his life. The former E! star claims that the founder of Playboy took explicit, non-consensual photos of herself and other women.
“When the girls went out with Hef, in the limo and at the nightclub, and returned to his room, he was constantly taking pictures of them with his disposable camera.” And these ladies were almost always inebriated. “I know I was inebriated,” Madison admitted. “It wouldn’t be his typical girlfriends. It would be new girls joining him for the first time on a night out, or women who had flown across the country to test a center page in a supposedly professional setting. And they were invited out and frequently pressured to come upstairs, not always directly from her. He would ask some of his girlfriends to do it as well, pressuring them to come upstairs. In any case, he’s constantly snapping photos. “
“So if you got messed up and you were in his tub with your top off and another girl did a sexually explicit pose on you and he took a picture of that on her disposable camera,” Madison continued, “he would make a copy and give it to everyone that night and put it in an album.”
The reality TV star compared it to “a feeling of pornographic revenge,” which occurs when a person shares sexually explicit material obtained from a partner without their consent.
“You take these pictures, they’re not consensual because you’re lost, and the next morning you find out they’ve been distributed to everyone who was with you?” “I’m not sure if he just assumed it was okay because all these women want to be in the magazine so badly that they have to be okay with getting naked, so I’m going to take pictures while they’re drunk and distribute them,” Madison added. “It’s the kind of thing that can make you feel trapped or overinvested in a situation.” It’s one of those things that makes you feel even more confined.”
Holly Madison explained that it further isolated him from his normal life.
“You feel very labeled, you feel very like’ How can I resume my normal life?” I have a feeling I’m going to be shunned. “It’s supposed to be,” she explained.
Madison, who dated Hefner from 2001 to 2008, discovered that one of the girls had been posting explicit photos online.
“I went to see Hef and told him, ‘Can you please stop giving out our naked photos to everyone because one of the girls is posting them on the internet?'” She thinks back. “I was a little afraid to talk to him, but it was the extreme measure that finally got me to say, ‘Hey, can you stop handing out those pictures?'” At the time, I had been in this situation for a year.
Hefner allegedly told the woman who posted the video that Madison had condemned him.
“Which adult returns and thinks, ‘Hey, so-and-so, can you please stop posting non-consensual nude photos on the internet?'” “Oh, and Holly told me, Holly taunted you,” she added. “He understands what he’s doing… It’s revolting. It would be unthinkable today.”
Prior to his death in 2017, Hefner denied Holly Madison’s similar claims about their relationship.
“I’ve had more than my fair share of romantic relationships with wonderful women in my life,” Hefner previously stated.
Madison’s revealing memoir was published in Us Weekly. “Many have gone on to live happy, healthy, and productive lives, and I am pleased to say that they are still dear friends today.” Unfortunately, some people have chosen to rewrite history in order to remain in the spotlight. “I guess, as the old adage goes, you can’t win them all!”